The Art of Trying

So, I decided to start a blog. I've tried doing them in the past, but I never really could grasp why anyone with a life like mine would start one. Aren't they just for people that travel the world, or take interesting photography, or have kids? I'm totally boring in comparison - just a guy that loves sitting around working on art of crazy monsters and badass chicks.

But then I realized as I worked on my art that I had all these things bubbling to the surface of my brain - things I wanted to ju8st get out (and talking to myself isn't all that fulfilling, as it makes me seem like a crazy person at times). A blog made the most sense, at least just so I can take some of these rabid thoughts in my head and shove them out into cyberspace. And who knows, maybe it'll help some other artists out there or at least give a window into my process. Social media is one of my resolutions for 2018, so this is step towards that. It's a big scary world out there will all the tweeting and instagramming, but I'm gonna conquer it.

Anyway, I posted up a new piece titled 'Busted' that features Harley Quinn of DC Comics fame. The piece is based on an image featuring popular cosplayer Andrasta. Originally, I was only going to do a quick study of it, since one of the things I want to improve on is lighting and colors. And let me tall you, that piece has it all - neon pinks! Dark blues! Muted purples! Not only that, but a lot of the colors are mixing with each other all over the place, which really tested my blending skills. As I worked on it though, I got more invested. I was determined to get the colors as accurate as I could, to get the face just right, and to try and knock it out of the park. it's been about half a year since I finished a piece, and even longer since I had one done I was proud enough to post online. This was gonna be it.

And I am very proud of it. It took a lot of time, and it tutned out great. Could I work on it longer? Sure, there are more hours I could invest, but at a point you have to step back and just say 'okay, it's finished.' I'm happy with it, but I'm also ready to move on. And damn, did I learn a lot. Mostly about color theory, how colors change when next to each other, and the importance of a soft brush vs a hard brush. I think I went a bit overboard with the soft brush, but it was just SO useful to blend all those colors without them looking like they were just colliding with each other. It's a tool in my arsenal I've neglected, and now I know when to use it.

But regardless of all that, I felt good to struggle. To go to the piece everyday determined to work it out, to run into problems and solve them, to find ways to understand what was necessary to get it done. To look at each day's work and see how it improved on the foundation laid by the day before. Maybe some people will look at it and scoff because it's fan art. maybe some will scoff because it's based on a reference image of a cosplayer. But regardless, I MADE THAT. Through hours of hard work, I painting the FUCK out of that piece and I have no regrets.

There is a quote by Neil Gaiman that goes: 'You will learn more from a glorious failure than you ever will from something that you never finished.' While I also believe sometimes it's better to cut your losses when you realize you aren't gaining anything out of it, this is something I want to really carry with me into 2018. I have a bad habit of not finishing things I start. and nothing is proof of that more than my art output in 2017. Even if I fail at what I'm trying to accomplish, that can be just as significant of a learning tool as success, and sometimes even more so.

Ready or not, here I come.